We Need to Talk

We Need to Talk

As I do every year, I will soon leave India at the start of monsoon. Usually this means going to the U.S. to visit a few communities to give talks based on my book, spirituality, mysticism and other topics of interest in our awakening world.Mary and Mac

This year I’m going to do something a little different: with few exceptions, I’m going to talk about only one thing. Because it is the most important thing the world needs to hear right now.

Using the unique lens of mysticism through which I view both Divine and earthly realms, I’m going to reveal what love really is. And it is not what what most people think.

I’m going to talk about why humans can’t get out of bed every morning and just blissfully love themselves.

I’m going to talk about why love hasn’t been able to make suffering go away.

I’m going to talk about how the human experience has been about relishing deeply that which is not love while simultaneously yearning deeply for love.

I’m going to talk about how rejecting pain and fear and judgment is not an act of love.

I’m going to talk about free will. And sorrow. And loneliness. And compassion. And forgiveness.

In other words, I’m going to talk about separation from God.

And then I’m going to talk about reuniting with God.

And I’m going to talk about genuine awakening.

And remembering.

And rising up.

And resurrecting.

And being real love.

Our understandings of love can go far beyond feel good memes and random mushy moments. We’re capable of MUCH more than that, and it is time to get serious about realizing our individual and collective potential for a greater world. If you’re ready to be inspired to incite real love, invite me to your community. We’ve got a lot to talk about.

I will be in the following general areas during summer and fall 2016:

U.S. West Coast region in July/August
U.S. southern and central region in August/September
U.S. East Coast region September/October
Europe and ?? starting in November

Invite me to share in your group, home, church, community center, retreat, webcast, radio or television show, or publication. This is an important time for us to gather together, and I look forward to doing so with all of you.

Abundant love (the real thing) to all.

P.S. My recent Buddha at the Gas Pump interview has now been viewed more than 13,000 times and has prompted numerous substantive conversations in diverse online and live communities. Please feel free to share this and my award-winning book, Unwitting Mystic, with your friends, loved ones and communities if you feel it could be of benefit.

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The Circle

The Circle

[Preface: The nunnery in which I live in northern India, Thosamling, hosts residents, visitors and volunteers from around the world. India is a haven for spiritual aspirants, and spiritual work here is rarely easy, elegant or expedient. But this haven can deepen one’s connection to Divinity in even the most undignified of times when one is willing to accept it on its own terms.]
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When all my dignity is gone, this child is still there, trusting.

At 10:30 Monday morning I was carried out from the nunnery on a stretcher. An Indian gardener, a French pastry chef and a French osteopath carried me ten minutes down a narrow rocky path as a Dutch carpenter walked ahead and an Indian yoga teacher walked behind.

When they laid me down on the dirt road to wait for the car to arrive, the pastry chef knelt beside me and took my hand. He began slowly tracing circles around my palm with his finger. In a quiet voice he said, “There is nothing else happening in your body right now except this circle. Just focus on this circle, okay?”

I couldn’t open my eyes to look at him but tried to give all my attention to the circle. It was at once soothing and consoling.

The Dutch abbess of the nunnery pulled up in the Thosamling van. The carpenter helped me into the back bench seat where I could lie down, and the osteopath and yoga teacher slid into the middle bench seat.

As the abbess pulled away, the osteopath turned around, leaned over the seat back, and gently took my hand. She began tracing circles around my palm with her finger, and never let go of me until we arrived at the hospital thirty minutes later.

Fourteen hours earlier a German Tibetan-language translator had heard me yell HELP from my room. I had been yelling periodically for forty minutes after sudden weakness and fever had come up and rapidly increased. Everyone was away from their rooms at that time attending prayers and a talk; during this same time I had also texted four people asking for help but everyone had left their phones in their rooms.

The translator arrived to find me flushed and with pain in my mid-back and stomach, so she went to fetch an Austrian nun who is a former nurse. In the meantime one of the people I had texted, a German nun, arrived. The nuns took my temperature while the translator went to get cold juice and ice. The nuns removed the thermometer before it beeped because it seemed to be taking too long; the reading at that point was 39.9C, or 103.9F.

The abbess soon arrived in my room, followed by the osteopath. The Austrian nun left and came back with aspirin. The Germans put ice on my head and wet towels around my legs, and helped me sip cold orange juice. The abbess called the doctor.

The aspirin and cold applications gradually began to reduce my fever, and the abbess and German nun took shifts checking on me throughout the night. I took aspirin promptly every four hours trying to keep the fever down.

Diarrhea that had slowly started hours earlier became urgent by midnight. I woke up four times in the night shitting on myself. My mid-back and stomach grew more painful.

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By morning the fever started to escalate again. Someone placed the stretcher outside my door, and minutes later the transport stage of the event was underway.

The hospital lobby was extremely full; throngs of Indian families were standing or walking around either checking in, paying or waiting. Within seconds of being helped through the door a young Indian attendant appeared in front of me with a wheelchair and whisked me to a room where I could lay down on an examination table.

In less than one minute an Indian urologist with kind paternal eyes appeared beside me, asking me questions while pressing on my stomach and kidney areas. He instructed the attendant to take me directly to the emergency care ward.

My body was in hypotensive shock so my blood pressure and pulse were very low. It took the apologetic Nepalese nurse three tries to get the IV needle in and two tries to get blood to flow into tubes. IV fluids. IV antibiotics. Pain med injections. Ultrasound.

Just after 3pm two Indian attendants, one of whom had a pronounced limp, wheeled me up six long, crumbling concrete ramps to room 419.

The abbess paid all the bills in advance on my behalf — medicines, tests, doctors fees and room charges. Before she left she knelt beside my bed, put her hand on my arm, and looked at me tenderly with her brilliant blue eyes. “It’s going to be okay, yes?” she said, patting my arm twice firmly. “I will be back in the morning and maybe take you home, or just check on you.”

The osteopath slept that night on the bench eighteen inches opposite my bed. The yoga teacher slept on a narrow stretch of the floor at the end of the bench. Eight times in as many hours the osteopath leapt up to help me to the bathroom as the urgency of diarrhea hit. Two of those times I again shit on myself before I could make it to the toilet.

When the attending Indian gastroenterologist came to see me around at 10:30am he had already prescribed six more bottles of fluids and three more bottles of antibiotics. This, following ten bags of fluids and three bottles of antibiotics I had already received.

“I want to go home,” I told the doctor.

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He frowned disapprovingly and shook his head. “I cannot advise that. You are still very sick.”

“But my fever is gone and I can take the fluids and medications orally now. And I can rest in my own bed.”

He laughed lightly. “But you are still very sick and it is much better and faster to take these things by fluids and we can monitor you.”

I looked at him with every bit of persuasive strength I could muster. “I know. But to be honest I’m just really worried about the money.”

Compassion immediately sparked across his face. This is India, after all; they know all about the balancing act between money and self care. The doctor bobbled his head and thought for a moment. Finally he said, “Okay, it is not good, but I understand. I will talk with the other doctors and we will see.”

Three hours later I walked gingerly through the gates of Thosamling. I was immediately greeted by a Polish student, an American student, a Scottish nanny, and a Russian massage therapist, all of whom I had been taking on morning hikes. The Polish student said, “We were just writing notes to you!” Everyone hugged me and walked me to my room; one held me by my arm, another carried a saucer of rice and bread, another carried my bag of medicines and reports, and another carried my small backpack. On my windowsill was an apple left by an American nun and a fresh sprig of jasmine left by an Israeli volunteer.

Throughout the day a parade of people came bearing fruit, juice, water and hugs. That night a British social worker took turns with the German translator checking on me every three hours.

Wednesday morning as I lie in my bed looking out my window the pastry chef passed by and happened to glance my way; he immediately smiled brightly. He gave me two thumbs up as he raised his eyebrows, silently asking, “Better, yes?” I smiled weakly and nodded, and he walked away cheerfully.

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That’s when the tears finally hit.

In my body, which by now I had learned was housing more than a dozen repulsive, large parasites, I could suddenly feel something other than the swell of pain and the saturation of medicine and the staunch rebellion of alien life. In this moment I could feel an immense web of compassion coursing through a circular field, intersecting from all directions through one central hub: my body.

My body, while in the extremely undignified state of being shit on, blazed, pricked, and grotesquely invaded, had become a common circulation point for compassion shared instinctively and generously by a German translator, an Austrian nun, a Dutch abbess, a French osteopath, a German nun, an Indian gardener, a French pastry chef, an Indian yoga teacher, a Dutch carpenter, three Indian attendants, an Indian urologist, a Nepalese nurse, an Indian gastroenterologist, a Polish student, an American student, a Scottish nanny, a Russian massage therapist, an Israeli volunteer, an American nun, and a British social worker.

Many vessels, one enormously bountiful circle of compassion.

As I lie here in my bed now still recovering, I think about the pastry chef smiling brightly with his two thumbs up, and I consider his words: “There is nothing else happening in your body except this circle. Just focus on this circle, okay?”

Yes. Yes, I will do just that, Pierre. Because the swirling, sweet, multicultural circle of compassion circulating all around and within me is a tremendously healing salve. It is Love’s elegant response to a foul moment of vulnerability in a body that is constantly seeking to radiate God’s presence in a world that believes it is separate from God. I see The Circle radiating God back to me, and I have no trouble at all focusing on that. For that is all that is happening in my body.

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The God of Our Youth

The God of Our Youth

Readers frequently thank me for introducing them to artist Akiane Kramerik, whose work I featured in Unwitting Mystic. She epitomizes the exceptional, gracious insight and wisdom I see being ushered into the collective consciousness by today’s youth. She is the gentle Rumi of our day, evoking emotion and resonance so deeply divine one feels effortlessly transported to the meaning of God that we know but have misplaced in our distracted lives.

I am constantly inspired by Akiane’s poetry and paintings, and with her latest piece she does not disappoint. This is the quintessential story of the direction of humanity today and why we can rest in confidence that all is well in our world. All is very, very well.

 

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Compassion Doesn’t Choose Sides

Compassion Doesn’t Choose Sides

Recently I did an interview with Rick Archer at Buddha at the Gas Pump. I had not been given any questions in advance, so I had no idea what direction Rick would take the discussions.

The first direction he took was toward my suicide attempt.

The archive of that interview has been up only four days at this point, and between the unedited original video and the official BATGAP video, it has already been watched more than 5000 times. http://batgap.com

The responses have been incredible, and one of the most common comments I have received is thanks for the compassion and “realness” with which I talked about the subject of severe depression.

Rick clearly pushed a lot of buttons with a “chin up” and “it’s just wrong” comment he made, but his remarks were important for all of us to hear. He gave voice to a common frustration that many people feel in not knowing how to relate to others who feel so alone or helpless in their despair. In the same way that one who has never had metaphysical events cannot relate to the scale of confusion that comes from having such profound experiences, one who has never reached such severe depths of despair as to attempt suicide cannot relate to the scale of confusion that comes from hitting a psychological/mental/emotional bottom where death seems to be the only way to finally end the suffering. For the person embodying the metaphysical event or suicidal ideation, everything is far too intimately and individually experienced for most others to empathetically relate.

Since the interview, I have been contacted by academics, therapists, social media groups and individuals who thanked me for helping to illuminate the immense struggles of people seeking to connect and feel less alone, less confused, and less depressed. Many said that just hearing me tell my story made them feel relief; that it was helpful to hear someone admit publicly that as our world is changing it can by REALLY hard to adjust to new feelings, new experiences and new understandings.

Most who contacted me also expressed dismay over Rick’s judgmental “it’s just wrong” comments, which they viewed as a lack of compassion. But I want to urge people who look at this kind of judgment as heartless to reach a little deeper. As I talked about in the second half of my interview, our individual reactions in these times have the power to change the world. Rather than responding to what one might consider to be a lack of compassion with an equal measure of lack of compassion, we can use our own experiences and our own voices to invite greater dialogue and understanding.

We can start by simply acknowledging the vast common ground we all stand on. We can acknowledge that while we may have different perspectives and opinions, we all share a deep desire to be happy and to see others happy as well. We can embrace that in each other right where we are, without imposing anything further into the equation.

Once we’re willing to meet each other where we are, and we open up to both receive and give from a more compassionate place within, we will soon be able to see and acknowledge joyfully that we also share a deep desire to love each other unconditionally. We can admit that we have no idea how to do that yet, but that doesn’t prevent us from finding ways to direct our spiritual life toward that end. Because unconditional love is where we’re heading. It’s what Jesus and Buddha taught and what countless religious doctrines teach. So why not point our spiritual compass in that direction now?

I encourage everyone to aim to gather on our vast common ground and support each other wherever, however, whenever we can. Because every voice, every presence matters. None of us are in this alone, ever.

I love you and I am so glad we’re here in this exciting time together.

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Wide Awake Prayer

Wide Awake Prayer

Recently I heard someone talking about the power and importance of prayer, and it reminded me of the morning I got my prayer groove on with the good folks at Unity of Greater Grand Rapids.

 

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Tea With Jampa

Tea With Jampa

It started with a scruffy-sounding, “Ohhhhhh! Tashi Delek!” (Tibetan greeting.)

I was sitting on a bench in the mountain forest below the Dalai Lama’s temple with my friend Tanja. Beside me quite suddenly was an elderly man leaning down and beaming as though Tanja and I were dear friends he hadn’t seen in years. “How are you?!” he said with sincere joy punctuating his words. “My name Jampa!”

He pointed up the path and said, “Come have tea! My house!”

The invitation was far too unexpected to be anything but a gift. So we said yes.

It turns out Jampa is one of the rare non-monastic Tibetans who lives inside the Dalai Lama’s temple complex. He came to India with the Dalai Lama in 1959. And he’s 87 years old.jampa_tea

Inside his room, which measured no more than 8” x 12”, was everything Jampa owns. Two small beds, four deep shelves, a small table, a two-burner stove, and a row of wall hooks held all of his belongings. Every single thing in that room served one or more purposes, which ultimately was all to support his deep devotion to spiritual well being.

Jampa put out a plate of fresh oranges, pears and apples for us to eat, then when the tea was ready he poured ours into ceramic cups and poured his own into a wooden bowl. “Tibetan style,” he said.

The three of us ate our fruit and sipped our tea in silence. We could not converse in Tibetan or English, so we simply took in the moment of togetherness knowing we were there for no other reason than togetherness.

In that precious stretch of silence, the sublime beauty of the randomness and simplicity of each other’s company was as palpable as the beat of my heart. It was a space of true spiritual well being for all of us, all because a humble 87-year-old extended a genuine offer of kindness and we said yes.

How did we ever forget love is as easy as that?

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Me And That Dalai Dude

Me And That Dalai Dude

I grew up with a deeply personal relationship to Jesus but was never a church goer, nor was I interested in Christianity or any other religion. Jesus was the only religious figure I had ever really thought about, so I never knew anything about the guy known as the Dalai Lama or the guy he represents, Buddha. But as I reveal in my book, four years ago I discovered I have an unusual and very rare connection to Buddha and his great ambassador, the Dalai Dude, and my life seems to keep validating this over and over again.

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April 2014

This April, as happened last year, I was in a crowd of people who came to see the Dalai Lama speak at his temple in India and happened to be standing EXACTLY where His Holiness came to stand and take photos, so I got to hold his hand – twice. As my friend Nicole witnessed with the same shock I experienced, this year he actually looked straight at me among the crowd, reached out his hand to me and then came to stand beside me for the photo.

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April 2015

Last week some friends and I went to hear the Dalai Lama give his final talk of a three-day teaching to Tibetan students. We thought the talk began at 8:30am like the previous days, but it turns out it was scheduled to start earlier. When we arrived at 7:15am the venue was already full and we were directed to a hillside out of sight of the main teaching area. As we were walking up the hill I noticed a row of men at the entrance to the teaching hall dressed in traditional Tibetan costume. I asked one of the guards if I could just duck under the security rope and take some photos and he said yes.

dalai waitingI had been standing in one spot taking photos for less than 60 seconds when another guard told me I had to step behind the white line, which when I looked down I could see meant I had to step backwards about six inches. When I looked up again I saw a car coming right in front of me, and to my surprise, it was the Dalai Lama. (Photo is without any zoom.)

dalai talk3And then because I was already near the main teaching area when he arrived, I was able to stay there with no problem.

dalai talkI left the talk a few minutes before it was over because someone else was speaking and I wasn’t interested in what they had to say. As my friend Tanja and I headed out to the main road to wait for our other friends, we realized we might actually see the Dalai Lama coming out the same way. Sure enough, less than five minutes after we started walking, here he came, right in front of us. (Video is also without zoom.) Dalai Lama leaving teachings.

I feel incredibly blessed to have these strong connections to such powerful teachers of kindness, compassion, joy and peace. In my metaphysical experiences I get exquisite time with Jesus and Buddha, and in my physical experiences I get extraordinary time with the Dalai Lama. I am always aware of feeling deeply grounded and real in their presence, because I am reminded then of who I Am, sharing in profound collective energies of Divine Love.

As we all are, though most do not know this. But I tell you, it is true. It is true.

May every moment of our time together in Love – with whomever we are around – be of benefit to all beings.

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